Once I become aware of them, it's hard to stop, but they keep coming back from time to time. It feels like they are constantly circling around me. I understand that these patterns have been ingrained in my mind over a long period, years if not decades. What I really want is to gradually move away from these unhelpful patterns and focus on personal growth. I've come to see that my long-term vision for myself isn't about achieving a single goal. It's more about growing as a person and exploring different aspects of myself and my experiences. This is very different from the way I used to approach things in the past. However, my old mental patterns keep recurring, they don't stop. They still set tasks for me and hold certain values, even though these aren't aligned with my deeper goals. It feels like there are layers in my mind that are hard to see, but when I'm functioning day to day, I can observe how my actions follow certain patterns or values. There's something in my mind that drives me to behave in certain ways, and over time, these behaviors have formed a kind of system or pattern that I've been stuck in for a long time. Now, as I'm trying to make significant changes in my life, I find that these old patterns are deeply ingrained. It's good that I've become aware of them because now I can work on breaking them. By recognizing these patterns, I can remind myself to gradually adapt and change.